Swift Lie Swift Kick

i guess after all the talk of the future there's one thing that I know that i'll be bring with me, guiding her through.... that's the Ying to my Yang, My sweetest friend, my Girl.

all these names I can define into a single letter

My J

i guess after all the stuff I put her through in the last two days was both astonishing and devastating. I'm not really a guy who will go into detail with his girl but all I know is that I hurt her, big time, and I always seem to be the instigator. What she doesn't know is that it kills me too, one sad look on her face kills more than a shot to the pills... so to speak.

I'll fight to be right cause mainly I'm stupid and stubborn like that but I know in my head that she's always right ... somehow.

 It kills me sometimes but I know she's only helping ... making me a better person.

and it's working.

She can't take me bringing it up but eh that's what I do. As much as a jerk I am sometimes there always some things that can't be changed, but luckily I have her to fill in the blank pages.

When I think of what I did i think of Nine Inch Nails. They have this sick song called 'Hurt.'

I think Johnny Cash's cover of the song does more justice to the lyrics.

she may knock on the Cashman but I hope she gets a chance to hear it, music always makes her feel better.

Guess we got one thing in common

Love yeah J

rocks

guess after that blog down there I can't help but think of the future

 I mean I'm 19, strong, good hearted, stupid, witty and don't judge people by anything they have going on.... at least I think that's me.

I know that some of it will change some of the people may change, and the places i'll be will change... I really see myself traveling all around this rock, I mean it's just sitting here asking to be explored: Europe, Brazil, Australia, Africa, New Zealand are the top 5, it's just tough when your lazy. I could save, I could get a license and drive all over this rock getting paid with luck but in the back of my mind I know I strive for that stability, and Guelph is the best place for it. I know everyone says that there home town is the best but Guelph is really fucking cool!

-sitting by the fire at the lake with a few beers and friends

-blazing and going to your rundown classes at your rundown schools

-walking around the old parts with the tunes on

-setting up shop on a hill and chillin' with someone who you know you can keep.

there just a few but eh its just warm here, sure we get big winters, but its really warm over here. I need to get out I know I do, but I want to come back and I always do...for her, for them, for my family and for myself.

lets me slow down

first gear is a friendly one with a nice feel to it.

it may change but it'll last

like a rock

(I'm downloading that song)

plastic swords

"aaron is a raskrgjrrivr and i lik sbindrman i m for."

Translated by big cousin Mike: "Aaron is a race-car driver, and I like Spider-man. I am four."

sittin' back with my little cousin is funny, so smart and so damn cool, that's all i have to say about this kid.

but aren't they all like that? Little bunches of human curiosity creating everything by thought and the desensitized feeling towards everything they encounter.

The little guy was scared of the water-heather, thought it was a dragon in my basement. We ran in and attacked the thing until death and it's amazing how you can do something like that... especially with plastic swords.

I mean that's why kids are freaking sick, I'd never do something like that on my own, I'd need a pure mind, an untouched imagination  to share his wonder with me. I'd never seen the contemporary world act like that, not that they should all the time, but I mean don't we all have dragons to slay?

No problems, No worries, No responsibility... and it's completely ignorant to want that but luckily we all get it at the beginning of our lives, that world and the security around it.

Mabey thats why I look at my teen brothers and notice something different, something almost creepy about them, like they don't fit. There just tripping on the stepping stones to adulthood and I know that, I myself, are on the last leap but I take pride knowing I'm almost done the transaction; giving up everything I used to believe and wonder and trade it in for a suit and tie.

but I know that won't be me, I'm not letting go of that childlike mind, sure i'll have to hide it and choose to use it where it will work but it's just... refreshing. Later on I may lose it but i guess that's when i'll lose touch with the real me and I don't think that'll happen too soon either...

Even if I lose touch with the old me there's always something to remind me of those times; when I get kids they'll be proud to have a dad, a hero that they can look up to, to save them from their nightmares, build them tree forts, put candy-canes in there soda

and battle dragons 

with plastic swords.

Oi, Welcome

Well here I am, in the confines of an online Blog free to throw some thoughts out there.

It's not totally for anyone in particular

It's not to act creative and deep

It's not to be something I'm not

It's to take all the stupid thoughts I always seem to have and organize them in the form of a Blog

buy the ticket

take the ride...